Never Ending

The past few days have been very calming and relaxed surprisingly. I have not been really stressing the things i normally would, however there is still some proof of over thinking here and there but it is beginning to relax. Sadly it took me to just stop caring about everything in order to suppress the over thinking in the first place. If anything were to have happen i probably would have just brushed it off as if it was supposed to happen anyway. This is with any situation that could have came my way.  But now i brought my feelings back in to place so i am choosing wisely what to care about and what not to care about. If i put too much of an effort into something and it goes wrong it might degrade my mental progress. I am quite fearful that something can trigger my over thinking still, but right now i am hoping it is permanently subdued. I smile more, i'm getting my sense of humor back, little things are not bothering me as much, and i can talk to the special person without thinking i will lose them easily. It is a good feeling. The next thing i need to work on now is building up my confidence and stop letting my insecurities get the best of me sometimes. Maybe by then i can be quite a guy.