An Apology

Lately i have been studying myself and i have finally come to a conclusion. So i been talking to a special person for quite some time now. We are practically meant for each other i may say. But i notice that she has not been so fond of my over-thinking dilemmas and my jealousy of this one particular person. In reality, i would say my only concern as of one right now is this guy. Now i have no problem with him except the possibility he may try to do things with her. That is really it. So being i overthink, i make up too many scenarios which begins to bother me. Ultimately this leads to me affecting this special persons mood. I trust her completely hanging out with this guy although i have some fear of something happening. But even if anything does come about i will not hold anything against her cause i know it was not her fault. I have been texting her relentlessly which is a very bad thing being this other kid she knows does it and it is quite annoying. But the only reason why i did this is because i did not her from her all day. But this is not a good excuse cause i could have texted at least one good time and just wait. But i need her company so bad cause i just felt so down and bad for getting so riled up over this guy. I am better then this, and i know how she feels about me doesnt compare to her feelings towards anyone else. And this is my fault entirely for letting anything get this bad and far. I really hope she can forgive me for all the problems and all the texts i been sending her. Cause quite frankly all this nonsense is not even worth losing her over. I love her, and i need to start proving it in a better manner.